In the light of this blog post, I may just warn you in advance that it is a downer of all proportions..the
why is it a downer you may ask, well the story starts with a gut feeling I had and we all know once you have a gut feeling, you wouldn't be able to shake it off and you know its gonna be a bad one.. This feeling all started as a nervously await the results of my law exam, and as expected I did worst than I hope for, which means I did not get in to sem 2 of law and would need to basically re-think the courses or even a new degree while in Uni, but not to worry with my streak of failure a back up plan from A -Z is in order, therefore we must move to plan B: Psychology.. pros, Its a good career path and easy to achieve, cons, Im not sure its for me, but I guess I gotta suck it up and just go with it, as I am running out of chances and it sucks.. I just realised that I basically wasted half of my year and now Im heading to the second semester with a mind set filled with nerves and low expectations. I know with negativity I won't go far but no matter how much I stay so optimistic, it all blows up in my face and bad luck comes and welcomes me with open arms. to tell you the truth Im not the one to face disappointments, Im used to it but its never something I want to really accept.. I work and Study so hard to achieve the highest marks but yet Im still face the fact that it is never enough and simply Im just to dumb to begin with.. I feel so powerless and weak in matter what I do, I know its sad to say, but its the truth and I just gotta face the facts that I will never be good enough..
Maybe the universe has other plans for me, but who I am I kidding, its just gonna kick me in the face again and leave me to ever wonder when is the time when things will go right for me..
